Oh hi!

Hi blog. Been a while. Here's a summary of current events:

1. Still have boxes of paperwork to get rid of. Got through two boxes tonight and found important docs for the Lincoln. This is most excellent.
2. Got a ticket for the Mitsubishi. Front plate missing. This isn't good.
3. Job is raining hell on me. This both good and not good at the same time.
4. Girlfriend gave me half of her burger last night. Even though it wasn't hot off the grill it was still quite delicious.
5. Girlfriend is leaving for a week to take care of unfortunate family things. Even though the circumstances aren't great, I think it will be good for her to see her family. I will be glued to her gchat status.
6. I've spent waaay more than budgeted for DJ-related things. Someone hold me back.

Headed to bed now, or soon. I found a book that i started but never got past the 1st chapter. Is that even possible?

Starting the new year off great.

Fail #1:
Sick on my birthday.

Fail #2:
DMV is a blackhole that sucks my time, energy, and money.

Fail #3:
Being sick while having to be on-call.

Fail#4:
Audio parts ordered 2 weeks ago still not in.

phrases

"If I die before I wake, and no one tries to take it all away, know that I will always be beside you. And should I cry before I wake, do not think what I give is what you take. Loving you is what I have been always dreaming."

I've been bouncing a beat in my head for the last few days, and it needed words. I don't think I could ever be a songwriter as the words take an eternity to move the few inches from my mind to paper. The above just kinda fell out though, and I've yet to determine why or how. I think the idea is really...pretty, but i haven't determined if i'm really as emo as it sounds.

I'm feeling...knotted. Think about how a knot is formed, it's purpose in life. If a knot were aware of itself, would it choose to continue to be a knot, or would it rather have someone unravel it so that even though it would no longer exist, it would also no longer be tying things up?

Wow, found this on my Blackberry. It's gotta be a few years old. Beware, crappy poetry ahead!

On the gold and red

Sometimes I wonder out loud,

"Where have all my emotions gone?

Whatever happened to the time I spent with you?

Then we break up.

Then we make up.

Then I wake up.

Now I think of

Ways to be loved

By anyone but you.

These days I try to lie

But only to myself at night

*******

Things are broken

But only for a moment

Scars are opened

And then its real.

Then we break up

The we make up

Then I wake up

And all I want is to wake up

Next to you.

To many times I've tried to cry

About the lies inside my mind

Its causing us to give up my eyes. For you.

The dreams are falling.

My heart is slowing.

Our lives are gowing

So far apart.

When does the pain stop and the healing start?

Sleep does not come easy tonight

I'm waiting.
Welcome arms outstretched;
Open mind alone;
I'm waiting to feel you on my mind.

It's darkened.
My eyes are wide shut;
Souly on my own;
I'm grasping for the night to take over.

departures & arrivals

I'm saddened to see the end of this adventure. I've discovered many new aspects of humanity that I previously had no thoughts or opinions on.

I also said that I was going into this with no expectations, as without a previous experience in a culture outside of my own, I didn't know where to set the bar. It turns out that I could have set it very high. The things I've seen, the people I've met, the places I've been, the relationships developed. Oh and the food. The food deserves special recognition.

I'm also eternally grateful for the hospitality the was provided to me. So many favors were given without question that I will never be able to repay them all. I imagine that when I reflect upon this experience it will be those favors that I will remember the most.

To round up this blog submission, if asked how I were to describe singapore and taiwan:

Singapore was the adventure part of my journey. Easy access to mass transit made it simple to say "let's head out!". There were lots of different cultures crammed together and with english being very common, I didn't feel like I was that far from home.

Taiwan was the culture-shock. English was rarely heard and I had to stick fairly close to my travel-buddy to understand much of anything. I also had the benefit of experiencing taiwan family dynamics from a unique perspective that would not have happened had I taken this trip on by myself.

Overall I enjoyed taiwan the most. Amongst a few other reasons, it was so completely different in many ways, one being that everyone was very kind and patient. I think a lot of this is due to the politics that surround the past between china and taiwan.

My eyes have been opened, and I'm now looking down a new path in my life. All directions look inviting and I'm anxious to see what will happen next.

Time to go, the plane to USA is boarding.
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